Posted on Jan 27, 2015
It’s as if one could tell a runner’s life story with a quick glance at their Ultrasignup results. Â We forecast how a runner will do, we decide what makes someone “elite,” Â we compare, we judge, we examine. Â I am okay with all of these things on a surface level, but as a runner who did not decide to actually be competitive until a few years ago, I feel that there is so much more to the story than a simple finish time, a placing, a ranking or a DNF. Â There’s a journey. Â So it then occurred to me- Ultrasignup should offer a comment line next to each race. Â Not as a source of excuses or finding ways to creatively type out sandbag stories, but as a way to add color to moments in a runner’s life in a summary of a few sentences. Not everyone has a blog! Â I’ve spent over 10 years running- I would love to comment on what each day felt like to me. Â Plus how fun would it be to read someone else’s summary of their day? It would be pure gold.
I thought I would take a few of my races and do exactly that. Â It was like I walked down memory lane for each race, reliving it as I thought about the highs, lows, the pain, the freedom, the perfect race, the worst race. Â It was me, a runner, over a decade of growing, learning, living, loving and my ultrasignup results became more than a number- they told a story about me:
Overall:29 GP:13
29:24:30
Age: 34
Rank: 68.97%
Comment: 70 miles of pure highs and lows with crazy thunderstorms, chasing the leaders, working hard in the middle of the night. Vomiting for a long time at mile 70, a long nap in the car, followed by my crew- Roch Horton telling me- “You can’t quit, you can’t run, but you can walk.” And walk for 30 miles, I did. Â I lived a whole year it felt in those 8 hours. Â One of my top 3 most memorable and proud runs. Â I draw on this run over and over again.
Age: 33
Rank: 100.00%
Comment: The most beautiful red mountains, crazy slickrock, totally hard course. Â Being passed by Larisa Dannis, then passing her back and running my best race ever. Â I felt strong at mile 85, which is always my goal. Â To push, to run with fire in my heart and to have so much fun with my crew. Â This stands out as a my best race yet, and I would love to come back here to live this day one more time.
Age: 33
Rank: 94.61%
Comment: If you haven’t raced against Jenn Shelton, I highly recommend it. Â What a day. Â What a course. Â Hal puts on a hell of a race and this was so much fun. Â My dad crewed, I flew, than I bonked hard, then I got lost several times. Â I got to see what I was made of with a beast of climb at mile 85. Â Then I cried for the last 10 miles and swore off 100 milers. Â (Yeah right). Â I will definitely be back to try this race again.
Overall:63 GP:12
11:03:52
Age: 31
Rank: 87.36%
Comment:
This is where I learned how to use my breastpump on the uphills in a race. Â This is also where I lost that same pump on the Bolinas Ridge. What happened after that is hilarious. Â Eva was 7 months old. Â I got to see her in the carseat as JB tried to crew me. Â I felt stronger than I had prior and had a glimpse of a better runner in me. Â A gorgeous day in the hills of the Headlands and I was so stoked to be there.
Age: 30
Rank: 93.01%
Comment: My 30th birthday was on this day. Â I celebrated with having JB as my pacer, my parents and I saluting my day with Red Bull at 3am. Â Dancing on the trail, laughing, loving the day. Â I also learned Ensure is a bad thing for me and I also solidified my love for 100 milers here.
Overall:146 GP:30
11:21:32
Age: 26
Rank: 68.93%
Comment: My very first 100 miler. Â David Horton’s race! Not sure I knew what I was doing, but man it was fun and hurt all at the same time. Â The course was quite long- “Horton miles,” I quickly learned. Â Oh yeah, and I beat my hubby here by a few minutes:)
 Comment: The only 100 mile DNF I’ve ever had.  I learned what hyponatremia is, what peeing blood looks like and what your mental status does when you know you are done.  I learned what it’s like to be F11 at Cal 1, just to be derailed by the river.  A race that taught me so much and a course I hope to make proud in the future.
And with that, comes so many smiles, some tears, some laughs but most of all, it tells more of who I was, who I am and what running is to me. Â That’s a little of what some races looked like for me… What are your memories of your race days if you only had a few sentences?
Posted on Jan 12, 2015
I never thought I could be this busy. Ever. I am back to work, back to training, back to everything times two! Â So sorry I haven’t gotten to this blog. Â I am finally able to put the past 4 months in perspective and take a breath. Â The obvious-Â my little man arrived. Â Asher is 16 weeks old and yes, I’m smitten with him. Â I mean to write up a separate post on his birth story at some point. Â Mostly because I learned so much this time around and if helps anyone, then awesome. Â The biggest takeaway for me was learning when it’s best to stop fighting (both physically and mentally) and to let nature take its course. Â In summary, I had a 13 hour labor (quick by my standards), 45 minutes of it was scary as his heart decelerated and a team ready to take me for a C-section hovered around. I gave in, stopped fighting and got an epidural so that he could turn to face the right way (anterior). Â My running mind only knows that feeling when shit is going wrong, to start fighting for the finish. Â But in this case, I had to relax into the pain and lean into something I didn’t want. Â That lesson is one for the books for me- being stubborn is a virtue, but learning to adapt is what makes you live. Â I was happy my doctor, an avid runner, and a patient man, gave me the encouragement to get my son out safely. Â And all resulted in a crying, sweet little boy being laid upon my chest as I cried those tears you never forget when you meet your child for the first time. I quickly got over my plan to go 100% natural and instead was thrilled my son was okay and I left my ego right then and there.
My initial recovery was a little complex- easier than last time, but harder because now I know I can handle more, push harder and my fitness was better throughout my pregnancy.  So when the doctor tells you not to run for 6 weeks, you nod and cross your fingers behind your back.  I began hiking 3 miles a day starting on day 3 after birth.  I ran 7 miles a few days after that and I still had stitches, and my pelvic floor felt like moving rubble.  So I backed off the running and kept up the hard hiking.  Around day 14, I began running with regularity.  3-5 miles most days, some on trail, some on treadmill with Asher in a baby swing next to me.  I kept this up but had continued pelvic floor/low back and hip soreness and just tried to work through it.  By the time Asher was 6 weeks, I was logging a few 50 mile weeks and on week 10, I ran the CIM marathon where the wheels fell off completely.  I had this inkling that maybe it was too much, too soon, but being the stubborn and much too eager runner, I wanted to run.  I started that marathon with a ton of will and determination to maintain 7:15-7:20 pace, but by mile 13, I had to walk, stretch, hit the porta-potty and repeat every couple of miles.  These were all issues with hip and postpartum pelvic floor issues that I realized the hard way.  Needless to say it was a terribly slow (3:54) painful run that really did cause me a setback.  Thanks for embarassing shout out at the finish, Eric Schranz:) I painfully walked my broken body to the car, cried for 10 minutes, slammed a burger while nursing my son and then finally saw the light  I needed to take a different path and so I made a list- .1) getting a coach to guide me or actually micro manage the crap out of what I was attempting 2) moving my ultra plans back a few months and 3)getting back on strength training.
So here I sit, 6 weeks post CIM of which 3 weeks were spent completely healing and the last 3 weeks into serious training. My hips are responding really well to the workload. Â I have long time friend and excellent coach, Jason Koop from Carmichael Training Systems guiding me constantly throughout the weeks. I mean checking in after intense workouts to see if things feel right. Â We both know that taking the proper time to heal is a priority. Â But so far, I am feeling really great. Â I am in physical therapy and pilates every week. Â I put my first A race ultra on the books for end of March at Gorges Waterfalls 100k. Â I think I can be ready for that race, and if not, I will know soon and can adjust.
I really want to race Western States and finish and do well. Â I think it will be on my mind until I do just that. Â I realize this plan may take a few years and I am okay with that. Â Having my little boy is worth the time it may take to comeback. Â But I really hope to make my way to Squaw sometime soon. Â If not, there are plenty of races to keep me excited and going until then! One is AC100 which I am lucky to be in this August. Â So now, its just going as hard as I can with juggling my work and my priorities as a mom. Â More blogs, more regularly I hope!